Blog brainstorming and a call for help.

[not_as_it_is]

So for anyone who escaped my plurk, I started up a mental health blog that I've been meaning to start for... ages. Katie's poking is immensely helpful, but, if there is anyone else who would like to join in prodding me to update, I would be grateful. Eternally.

I'm not saying it's a great blog or that it's going to be great, but my therapist thinks it's a good idea and I don't think it's a bad thing to have something like this out there that my family can read (you know, since I'm so great at staying in touch with people). I'm hoping to get a better idea as to what I'm doing, why I'm doing it, and what I want to accomplish as I go along.

I mean, I know that I want to make it personal enough for others to relate to. I want to make it somewhat informative so people who don't have depression/anxiety/whatever can possibly learn something. I also want it to be fairly lighthearted.

This post is going to be where I put ideas for entries and ask very politely for your input. I don't want to focus wholly on depression; introversion would be good. Asexuality might be too much, considering that my parents may be reading. Getting new POVs is always awesome, too. I can only really talk about the world as I see it; I'd really like to hear thoughts about things that make people 'abnormal' (or at least misunderstood by the majority of the population). Different perspectives!  Yay!

Anyway. If you have any thoughts you want to share--don't feel pressured to say the 'right' thing since I'm just keen on poking other brains--or think that there are topics that deserved to be addressed, hit me!

Aaaand ideas that may or may not pan out, but I need 'em here for my own reference, at least:
- Faith and depression (I have a friend who finds some comfort in God; she's so earnest that I wish I had some beliefs)
- Things that are not true: I should go out and make friends like a normal human
- The world was built for extroverts and that is stupid
- Depression versus introversion
- "Just because I want you to go away doesn't mean I don't like you"
- Lazy versus depressed (am I, personally, using a disorder as an excuse to be lazy?)
- I don't hate people, I would just rather not be around them
- If I didn't have a sense of humor, I would be forced to kill myself
- Things that make me feel better
- The hard part is getting out the door... or out of bed

ETA
- Creativity and depression
- Introversion versus shyness
- Keeping in touch ("We're still friends, I just want to be alone tonight")
- Depression is not unhappiness and no, I can't just "cheer up"
- Self-image
- Communicating what's going on in my brain

These are... really rough, mind, and not well thought-out.

I feel weird writing about myself in a public journal that people I know offline will see. It's not because I'm secretive about my issues, it just seems... egotistical? And promoting it feels weird, too. HEY READ THIS THING I'M DOING even though I question its value and I don't feel solid enough about what I'm doing to push it on people and hello my self-esteem really IS this low I'm not looking for ass pats.

YES. Please toss me your two cents if you have the time/energy/inclination.